Hello!
It’s 11:10 pm, T has just gone to bed and I naturally grabbed the remote and put on “One Tree Hill” yes I’m aware the show is really old, but I’ve come to realize tonight that it is just one of many of my comfort shows.
I can watch all sorts of different shows and movies in the evening, but when it’s my TV time before bed, it’s usually one of a handful of shows that I binge watch every night until bed and continue the next night and the next night, until the series is over. I find this to be very comforting before bed.
I have never been diagnosed with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) but I certainly have quirks or as I’m told I’m “surper anal” about some things lol
I need my bed to be made a certain way, things around the house placed a certain way, spacing and symmetry are so important!
I try to eat at the same time every day, go to bed the the same time every day.
I love even numbers and dislike odd numbers. I try not to plan important things or schedule appts. On odd numbered days.
I have my favourite colours, usually black clothing (not in a Gothic way, each to their own, its just not style) just in a way that makes me feel slightly confident about my body and weight. Anything else that can be pink, I get in pink. Pink makes me happy. It’s literally a comfort colour. Purses, my Stanley cups, bags, ipad cover, accessories etc. Pink.
I also have a comfort animal. Moose. I have moose blankets, pictures, a rack of antlers, even moose stuffies. One I even sleep with when I’m sad.
Don’t even get me started on music lol. My Playlist has thousands of songs, but I definitely have favourite songs and when I do I tend to overplay them, way too often. It drives anyone who may be around me nuts. But in those moments that song is making me feel good!
I have very specific travel routines when I have to drive 4 hours to see my kids, family or to a medical appt. I take a very particular route, I only stop at certain gas stations and god forbid there’s a detour! Chaos!
I struggle with not having all the information. For example, if one of the kids wants to come visit for dinner, my first question is what time? When I don’t have this information, my mind is in complete chaos. Are they staying for dinner? I’d have to adjust dinner plans! (Which isn’t an issue but knowing in advance is helpful!) I also don’t want to wait around all day, what time do I start dinner? Are they spending the night? I’d have to get the guest room ready. I literally panic not knowing what needs to be done before their arrival. I’m told I need to ” relax” and just “go with the flow” but I can’t do that at all. I have tried!
I’m anal when it comes to cleaning. I clean a lot when I’m stressed, it’s a form of stress release, but I think I take over, because it’s something I can have control over. Strangely though at the same time, I get upset when others don’t clean up after themselves. I know I can’t have the best of both worlds.
Anything that isn’t comfort or feeling in control is chaos. Sometimes this chaos in my head can make me spiral. Sometimes leading to splitting and sometimes I even dissociate.
Does anyone else have these same issues?
Do you have comfort shows? music? routines? Or are you able to relax and go with the flow? If you can, how? I’d love to be able to!
Talk to me! Share your comforts? I’m really curious what everyone binge watches? I could use a new comfort show lol
Have a wonderful night and day!
Thank you for all your support,
~Tasha